Stress: It's stealing my soul...
I'm praying to the scale gods that maybe just maybe I can at least maintain my weight this week. I don't deserve to lose; I know that, but would it be so bad if I could just not gain any weight back? It's going to be tough to do.
For starters, I'm going to Portland this weekend to meet up with some friends. Shopping, eating out and drinking copious amounts of liquor are on the horizon. Will I be able to hold it together? And if I can't, how will that make me feel Monday when I've gained weight? I don't really have the answers at this point.
All I know is that when you make permanent changes, you have to roll with the punches a bit. A bad week will only de-rail the train if you let it. Come Monday morning I'm going to get my game face on and get right back to it. Exercising. Eating right. Doing all the crap I know I need to do, yet somehow haven't been doing this week.
I've noticed I feel like complete and utter shit today. I'm tired, grumpy, and just generally not in a good mood. It really sucks, and if this is how I feel when I am unhealthy, well, then I don't want to be an unhealthy person anymore. I feel totally brain dead this week. I mean, hell, I had a hard time just finding the energy to write this blog post. That's really sad.
This has been me. All. Week. Long.
As I sat here and pondered my situation, I was having a chicken and egg moment. (No, not a chicken and pig moment). I was wondering what came first. Did the stress make me sick, which in turn made me not want to exercise? Or did the lack of exercising and eating right make the stress heightened and make me feel like shit? I honestly don't have the answers to this, but there are a few things I know for certain.
1) If I would've been drinking my green smoothies this week, I probably would've avoided this cold, which has made it difficult for me to exercise.
2) If I would've been diligent in my exercising, I could've reduced my stress, since exercise does that.
3) If I had a shot in hell of not gaining weight this week, it would've been by exercising and eating well early on, because let's get real, Portland is not going to be low calorie.
Portland or bust, baby!
So there you have it folks. I'm a big ole' fuck up and I'm telling it like it is on the blog. I'm already planning my redemption for next week though. I have a few goals in mind, and starting Monday, I'll be back on the track like I never left it.
Next week, I WILL:
-Document my food intake.
-Do pilates every morning.
-Run 3 times.
-Drink green smoothies at least 5 days for breakfast.
There, I feel better already.