Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Something I Never Thought I'd Say

Muffin Top was right. [OMG, I can't believe I actually admitted that out loud!!!] Let me say it one more time just for good measure. Muffin Top was right. After our half marathon was over and I "retired" from running, she told me that I'd miss it. [running, that is] I told her she was crazy. For a long time, I truly thought she was nusto. Not only did I NOT miss running, it actually felt freaking fantastic that I'd never have to do it again. MT could suck it because I DID NOT miss running. Whatsoever.

I'm lookin' at you, Muffin Top!!!!

Slowly though, ever so slowly, it's been creeping up on me without me actually realizing it. I can't seem to get my calorie burn to be where I want it for the day. I'm not eating as healthfully because I've lost that mind set of fueling my body. I constantly feel the need to set some kind of fitness goal in my life. Even my anxiety [which was almost non-existent while I was running] has come back in full force. All signs point to it, but hell if I was going to admit it, even to myself! I am pretty sure I actually MISS running. What's even worse??? I think I maybe, kinda, sorta want to start doing it again. You know, like on a regular basis. I MIGHT even want to train for an event again. Madness. I honestly can't even believe I'm putting this in writing.  I may be truly insane at this point.

Because I am, in fact, a nutter.

So be on the lookout for more info about this on a blog. I'm going to browse around the interwebs and attempt to find a new training schedule. I'm also going to take a long, hard look at my life and try to figure out what I really want. Do I want to go for the full marathon? Do I want to run another half? Or do I just want to consistently be able to put in five miles in a sitting? It's all up in the air right now, folks, but there's more to come.

5 comments:

  1. Yay, you've converted!

    She's always right about my writing too. But I love her for that.

    I have zero interest in a full marathon, but love ten milers. They are the perfect length of run time in my oh so humble opinion. I'd consider another half, anyone want to sign up for something in the middle of the country and meet me there?

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  2. Dude. I am ALWAYS right!!! Just ask me ;)

    inotu - I would FLOVE to meet up with you for a run!!!

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  3. I look forward to reading all about it!!

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  4. I am right there with you. I am more batshit crazy than usual when I don't run. It's not pretty. Nor are my fat ass legs when I don't run. Sigh.

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