Something I Never Thought I'd Say

Muffin Top was right. [OMG, I can't believe I actually admitted that out loud!!!] Let me say it one more time just for good measure. Muffin Top was right. After our half marathon was over and I "retired" from running, she told me that I'd miss it. [running, that is] I told her she was crazy. For a long time, I truly thought she was nusto. Not only did I NOT miss running, it actually felt freaking fantastic that I'd never have to do it again. MT could suck it because I DID NOT miss running. Whatsoever.

I'm lookin' at you, Muffin Top!!!!

Slowly though, ever so slowly, it's been creeping up on me without me actually realizing it. I can't seem to get my calorie burn to be where I want it for the day. I'm not eating as healthfully because I've lost that mind set of fueling my body. I constantly feel the need to set some kind of fitness goal in my life. Even my anxiety [which was almost non-existent while I was running] has come back in full force. All signs point to it, but hell if I was going to admit it, even to myself! I am pretty sure I actually MISS running. What's even worse??? I think I maybe, kinda, sorta want to start doing it again. You know, like on a regular basis. I MIGHT even want to train for an event again. Madness. I honestly can't even believe I'm putting this in writing.  I may be truly insane at this point.

Because I am, in fact, a nutter.

So be on the lookout for more info about this on a blog. I'm going to browse around the interwebs and attempt to find a new training schedule. I'm also going to take a long, hard look at my life and try to figure out what I really want. Do I want to go for the full marathon? Do I want to run another half? Or do I just want to consistently be able to put in five miles in a sitting? It's all up in the air right now, folks, but there's more to come.