Friday, June 3, 2011

Anxiety Blows

I don't think I've ever made it a secret on this blog that I deal with some major anxiety issues. I mentioned it here, and even here. If I kept looking, I'm sure I could find more examples scattered through the blog. I've dealt with worry, panic, etc. since I was a small child, but there have definitely been phases of my life when it's been a more prominent problem for me than other times.

Unfortunately, one of those times is right now. I've been having so much generalized anxiety lately that at times it feels like it's ruining my life. It sounds dramatic I'm sure, but anyone who's ever had those pervasive, worrying thoughts in their head will understand. It's draining, and depressing, and it makes me feel so hopeless at times.
Look!  It's a picture of me!!!

I hadn't realized how bad it had gotten until a couple of weeks ago. Anyone recall that nutter who thought the world was going to end on May 21? I'm not exactly sure what it was about him that triggered my anxiety, but I spent the better part of the week fretting over impending rapture. I'm not even religious, people!!! The worry over something that silly absolutely ruined an entire week of my life. Ri-freaking-diculous!!! It occurred to me then that, yeah, maybe it was time to seek out a little help.

This was me.... kind of...

Fast forward to now, and I'm doing a little bit better. I'm watching caffeine intake, getting enough sleep and I'm desperately trying to schedule in my exercise. I also have a doctor appointment in a week or so to see about some therapy. [and maybe some meds??] Things are looking up. I just need to remember the big, important thing that applies to all of us. I HAVE to make time for me. I deserve to feel well again.

Yep. Yep.  I need therapy worse than that girl.

We are on to a new month, and I'm making my health my number one priority yet again. Starting Monday I'm back to running [yay!], eating healthy, sleeping 8 hours a night, blogging more frequently and spending time relaxing. It's hard to pull yourself out of a hole, but that's exactly what I'm about to do.

Stay tuned...

3 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear about your recent bouts of anxiety. Over the past two years I have struggled with generalized anxiety and panic. I've posted a lot about it on my blog. I haven't tried therapy, but I did try meds and they did help (I'm now med-free) Its good to hear that you are making your health a priority -- I'm attempting to the same thing. Happy thoughts your way!

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  2. I'm basically a lazy bitch, so I take the chemical route whenever possible! Finding the right anti-depressant for you may take a couple of tries, but it's worth it.

    Then there is xanax for the days you can't control the tears. I rarely take those any more.

    There was also therapy involved before finalizing my decision to end marriage 1 and 2. I needed that to have someone to bounce ideas off of.

    You've got your blog to express what you're feeling, and your bloggy/Twitter friends for support. Try not to despair. As long as we're still kickin', there is hope!

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